My Testimony

As i was growing up I began to turn my back to what i was taught. I decided to manage my own life. I wanted to try the pleasures offered all around me. I did a lot of crazy things, things i know were not pleasing to God. I thought that by doing those things i can become the best person i can be. People see me as the jolly Mitch, the joker, Mitch with the smiling face - but all this happiness is all superficial. I didn't want people to know that deep inside i am lacking true happiness. That i am the opposite of what they really think.
Because of work i totally forgot going to church, reading the bible and even praying. Sadly it was not until i experienced marriage problems that i started to call unto Him. I started praying again and ate my pride just to save the marriage. I remembered my mom, my grandmother she used to talked to us about God and His wonderful plan for our lives. And being a child, before, it was easy for me to absorb what she shared. At a young age i was exposed to the teaching about Jesus. I also regularly went with my family to a lot of activities where the word of God was preached & studied. As i recall how i was brought up, there i realized that i needed to stop running away from Him. The lost of my late husband waked me up. I knew i need to stop managing my own life, I need Him in my life and finally, i rededicated my life to Him. It was one Sunday morning after the Pastor's sermon that i accepted the fact that my deep commitment to Him is what i needed. Now i know that the true happiness I've been longing will not be met by the idea of controlling my own life.
Because of that one sunday morning, i finally gave this up. I got tired of running away from Him & following my own desires. I decided to turn the control of my life to Him. As i began to follow Him faithfully changes just started to come naturally. I began changing into a better person. I learned how to face my problems with courage,learned humility and learned to start trusting God for even my resources, believing that He has something great in stored for me. I know that He has plans to proper me and i will not be harmed. He gave me hope and future. I am confident that what is happening to my life right now is His plan. He is my hope and i know for a certain that i have the gift of eternal life that only He can give.